The Importance of Living Life On Your Own Terms
“When you have bad days or thoughts ask yourself where it comes from and how can you get over it.”
I’ve been struggling mentally for a while and it’s a complete mess! 🙄
I haven’t been able to get therapy right now so I’ve been doing a lot of journaling and self reflection to figure out what’s going on with me and why. I know the root of my issues that creep up periodically but I have no idea how to fix them so I try to surround myself with nature and light. This is a big part of the reason that I moved to Vegas I needed to see the beauty of the things God created so that I would always be reminded of the beauty of God and how things are much bigger than me and my emotions.
Someone asked me if I know my purpose yesterday and I believe that I do so I try to focus on that as often as possible but that doesn’t always help. This is why it’s important for me to put myself in an environment that gives me gentle reminders when I’m not in a place to lift myself up. Sometimes people look at you and your decisions and try to tell you that you’re doing too much or that your decisions seem too crazy. None of that matters because they aren’t there with you when you’re alone in your room battling your hardships. So when you see me exploring Las Vegas and taking pictures in front of amazing landmarks just remember that life isn’t always what it seems.
Me getting out and exploring is me doing my best to keep going when I don’t want to. So many people have told me that it looks like I’m living my best life and doing much better and although most of that is true because I’m doing better physically and I’m gaining weight there’s still so much more to it. I still deal with things physically and sometimes it’s super heavy on me mentally because of trauma from my past. I struggle with loss and broken relationships and now that I deal with so much physically I always wonder if those things will be a barrier as well.
Moral of this super long story is to live your life without worrying about what anyone has to say ever. Also...if you’re someone to pass judgement keep in mind that you don’t always know what a person is going through so be mindful before sharing your opinion even when you don’t mean harm.